you know how i always say that when i am having a difficult time, or feeling depressed, the best thing for me to do is to go out to my shop and work? well, for some reason this time it's not working. it's really awful. my one solace isn't there for me this time. in fact, it only is making things worse. the absence of relief really magnifies the hole. does that make sense? i can't seem to get past this. i can't get out of my head. i am hoping that my upcoming trip (back to santa fe for the felice brothers, then on to the coachella festival for MANY really wonderful bands, including the felice brothers) will help me to break out of it, to forgive myself, to forgive others, to get things in perspective, to move on. live music and travel have also always been powerful healing balms for me.
today i completed only one piece. i spent most of the day fiddling with some new riveted designs. if i get them to work the way that i hope they will, i will share them with you soon. but in the meantime, there's this:
the "growth hurts" ring,
with a brilliant deep green, pavilion cut chrysoprase
this ring was very therapeutic for me, the cutting out, filing and buffing of all of the little leaves was quite zen.
right? ultimately, that is what is happening here. i am having some serious growing pains and they will pass, and i will find myself in a new place, with new knowledge gleaned from this experience that will help me in the future. that is what it's all about.
the stone is magnificent.
doing what you know is right is hard. it hurts.
the painless, easy way is usually not the right way.
but stay your course, my friend. stay true.
you will find the peace that you so deserve.