Tuesday, February 15, 2011

beauty

patty returned home from tucson with some real beauties for me...

these are the faceted ones.
intense golden prehnite on top
chrysoprase on the bottom.

golden prehnite
i've never seen it anywhere else except from this australian vendor, shamus. it is so incredible.

ahhhh... chrysoprase...

(if any of these stones are screaming your name,
please feel free to contact me about setting them aside for you.)

and i received these glorious cabs from teresa in the mail today.
aren't they lovely?

i am really struggling these days. there are so many transitions happening in my life. so many strings have been cut, and loose ends are flying around everywhere. lots of loss. lots of change. lots of overwhelmingly sad acceptance taking place. it is really difficult. i try to look at the positive aspects of these changes and stay strong, but sometimes, sometimes i just want to crawl into a little hole where no one can touch me. i have known all my life that i am different from most people. and a long time ago i accepted that very few people were ever going to understand me. and that has been very painful over the years. i am too honest and too intense for most people. i am at my best when i am by myself. but when i do find folks that i connect with, i cling to them tenaciously and it is therefore especially painful when they exit my life. but that is where i find myself today and i again go back to acceptance. i cannot change other people; i only can choose to make changes that are best for myself and my family, whatever the outcome may be.

when i am feeling like this, i know that the best thing for me is to get out to my shop and create. but unfortunately, it hasn't really been happening. first i was sick, then the girls were sick, then i went on my little trip. i am now quite behind on custom pieces, etc. and i need to get caught up before i can just do what i need to do out there. soon...

p.s. i may have spoken too soon about the gallery; i am still pondering it...

p.p.s apparently yesterday was "delurking day". if you are a precious lurker here, i encourage you to come on out and say hi. leave a comment. i'd love to know who you are, why you are here, what it is you like about my blog, how you found me, anything really. whatever you'd like to say. pretty please? i have a sneaky suspicion that it might just cheer me up to hear from all of you lovely folks that i know are visiting ;) and, of course, i adore all of you regular commenters; your feedback means so much to me.

17 comments:

Cathy said...

Oh, I'm a lurker, tho I have commented now and then. Love reading what you have to say, and adore your work. Wish I could meet you in person. Sorry to hear life is making another change on you. Perhaps without the hard side of life our creative side would be less clear? I like to hold onto that anyway. xo

Heather Tales said...

Dear Kristi, I took the liberty of a few stones (Chrysoprase) - the selected stones I sent you in a Etsy message (+pictures). The faceted stones I would have liked in a chain / necklace pendant - similar to Emily's Bloom. The single stone as Grace Ring;)))). I would of course make a deposit.

All the best
Katerina

Lisa-Maladylis said...

I'm a simi lurker but I read all your posts. Its funny, I feel like I know you personally since I follow your blog so much. I think we would be friends if we lived close to each other. I thought the post was interesting since the etsy group I'm in, we all posted about change in our blogs. Change is the ever needed part of growth so I think change is a good thing personally. (((((((((((hugs from your friend in New Hampshire))))))))))) Oh and I love your stones, but then green is my favorite !

DalaHorse said...

Krisiti....if certain people don't understand you...well then it their loss...i try to live by the philosophy "expect nothing", then it's harder for things to get blown out of perspective. I think you have a refreshing outlook on life...and as far as the honesty and intensity....those are wonderfully sublime qualities...besides the flip side of that is a bullshitter and who needs that. Hugs lady! Sue♥

al2ice said...

Hi Kristi,

I love reading updates on your blog and the lovely photos you take of your work and your fabulous family! Listening to your music in the background just makes it more FUN! =D

Silver Sparrow Designs said...

thanks, guys! cathy, i absolutely agree about turmoil bolstering my creative side. i only wish it didn't have to be that way!

katerina, the stones have been set aside just for you, m'dear!

and yes, lisa, change is good. i am just concurrently working on acceptance of things that cannot change, and it's got me befuddled.

and sue, thank you so much for your kind words. i do need to practice the "expect nothing" attitude. i tend to expect a lot of the people i do connect with and trust, and i do tend to get hurt because of it.

and alice, yay! thanks for leaving a comment! i am so glad you are here!

Rag and Stone said...

There are so many great things you have taught me, dearie....and the lurky part is you don't even know it. I didn't even know what a blog was, let alone how to build one myself, until I started reading yours! Your etsy shop is an inspiration, your work is always refreshing and...seriously...I don't know how you get metal to look like that! I hope you continue in your artistic journey (and lurkily, i hope i get to read about it!)

Teresa said...

Sorry to hear about your sadness. I, too, have adopted sort of a "expect nothing" philosophy, I try to blow off the bad and feel gratitude for the good, and go about my business. it does get easier. Your jewelry is BEAUTIFUL l and I love hearing about all the love you have for your family. Take care.

Teresa said...

Hi Kristi, don't you change a thing! I love you just the way you are. You know I'm always lurking from Albuquerque, but this last week you may have seen me lurking from Oceanside. The beach was wonderful! Hugs to you!

mirien said...

I went back to lurking after trying emails to you and wondering if I just sounded weird and too intense, so hearing you describe yourself made me nod, because I completely understand being like that. Sorry I haven't been commenting, I'll try and start again!

Goregous, gorgeous stones and I think I fell in love with that purple and cream swirly cab from Teresa.

liz r. said...

Hi Kristi, I'm a lurker, although I have commented a couple of times. I found your blog through your Etsy shop. I love looking at the beautiful pictures of your jewelry and your family and the landscape you live in!

I find you so refreshingly honest and cheerful in your posts; just reading about your pieces and the inspiration behind them inspires me as well.

I'm sorry you're in a bit of a funk, but I'm sure it will pass. Maybe it's a time of transition?

liz r. said...

Oh! I meant to ask what happened to the darling mushy gooey love necklace. Did it sell off Etsy?

GraceC said...

Hi Kristi, okay, okay, I'll comment, but only because you asked so nicely. :) I have been a silent lurker for a couple of years now I think (I recall a few other of Junebug's bdays . . .) and never commented only because NOT commenting was kind of a policy of mine. I'm trying to change that though, and since it seems like you could use a virtual hug from a complete stranger, I'm stepping up for that. *hug* Like everyone else here, I very much admire your work -- its simplicity and honesty -- as well as your manner of declaring yourself -- also simply and honestly. You seem to be a warm and generous soul, and I like you. We also have some of the same taste in music (did Mumford and Sons kick a** at the Grammys or what! and I had tuned in to see my very fave band, the Avett Bros). So please be cheered and supported to know that you have many admirers out in the netherworld. We are cheered and supported to have you.
*another hug*
Grace

Silver Sparrow Designs said...

oh, you guys are so wonderful!

rag and stone, i am so glad i inspired your blog; it is lovely! as is your work. it is wonderful to have you here!

teresa, thanks so much. i think you are fabulous too, and so is your glass!

mirien, i know you're there and i think you're awesome. i wondered why you never wrote back via e-mail. i was waiting to see photos of your work!

liz r. THANK YOU. it is my honesty that often turns people off so thank you for appreciating it. i see no reason not to be honest here, right? and, send me a convo about the mushy gooey love necklace!

and gracec~ lovely to meet you after so long! i am so happy that you changing your policy, and you're right; i do need a hug! it is wonderful to know that you feel cheered and supported by me, because i do certainly feel that from you! (and yes, i ADORE mumford and sons! we do not have tv, so i didn't get to see the grammys, but i hear they were awesome. i will get to see them at the coachella festival in april! and they're coming right to my little backyard, to the telluride bluegrass festival in june!)

thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!

Emily said...

I guess I am a little bit of a lurker here but really if you see on your live traffic feed that I am spending forever on your blog it's just because I leave it up on my computer to I can listen to your playlist! you really have exquisite taste in music and I've found so so much great new music through you. Thanks! Can't wait for felice brothers in May! Hope you are feeling all the virtual love coming your way from all over the world, including Utah! take care.... emily

Taddyporter said...

Hello dear Kristi!

I want to say that I think you are a TRULY beautiful person; I am inspired by your stories and creative artistry that clearly comes straight from the soul. Thank you for sharing with us; I feel ALWAYS too eccentric and "unique" but as I get older, I realise these are precious gifts and I love who I am now.... Please take care of your most tender sparrow heart, love to you!

Silver Sparrow Designs said...

emily, i hardly consider you a lurker, in fact i think of you as such a supporter of my work. thank you so very much for that! and for being my new salt lake music buddy, can't wait for the felice brothers! also, check out the opening act, carry ann hearst and michael trent, a.k.a "shovels and rope, they are AWESOME!

and taddyporter, thank you so very much. what fabulous words those are for me. i feel as though i should print them out and carry them around in my pocket, my friend. thank you. i am glad to know that my true self shines through so clearly here, and that you all are so accepting of that self...